I am a Runner

I am a runner.  I have been for a very long time.  My first memory of running might be fictional, but I think there is a grain of reality in it probably… I recall loading up a wagon with some essential toys because I was running away from home.  I have a vision of getting around the block and up a hill where I could look down on the townhouse complex I lived in –  panic or intelligence set in and I turned around and ran home.

I am a runner.  When life gets painful, uncertain, scary, tough I run.  My running has manifested in many ways.

There were the teenage years where running meant hiding under long bangs (thank you 1980’s hairstyles) and black eyeliner.  During that time, it also was a weekend of being a runaway from home; lord the dumb and dangerous things we do as teens, sorry mom and dad.

There were the drinking to run away times in my 20’s and again in my early 40’s.  There were bouts of hard exercise and running for fitness phases of my 30’s.

Today I notice my running away is more in my head, more intellectual in nature.  When I hit bumps in life I run to the places in my head and in my body that tell me to run away.  But I am doing something new now, when I begin to want to run away I just make myself sit in the feeling.  I make myself sit in the moment before I run.

This isn’t easy, but it is really amazing what you can do when you remember that you can face both hard and easy times the same way, with a knowing that you can survive either because you have before.  Then I settle in and wait for the emotional and metal ride to begin, but I try to keep some distance from the experience. I put myself in observer mode like I am watching a movie.

Then I take the information I get from the ride, information about what I am afraid of, what I am doing to show fear externally. And I use that information during a Neurosculpting® Stress Release exercise to release it and change it.

I am still a runner, but now I don’t pack my bags and put on my sneakers every time I hit a bump in the road.  Instead I stay in the moment – and oddly enough staying there gives me my next best steps and seems to make the fear move out faster for me.

I think the idea that we are meant to be happy all the time or that happiness is the ultimate goal is why I run.  I run when I think I am not achieving or living in happiness all the time. Now I know and embrace the fact that we are happy sometimes and we are not happy, maybe downright miserable, other times.  And that’s ok, because we have survived both times – we just don’t always stay in the moment to remember that fact.

My name is Susan, and I am a Certified Neurosculpting® Facilitator and the Director of Corporate Programs for the Neurosculpting® Institute. I am also a wife, mom, friend to many, a skier, a boxer and according to my dog – a pretty good dog mom!

I believe it is important for potential clients to understand how I came to Neurosculpting®, as it often connects me to you.

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